Some people can’t help themselves…

I’m up way earlier than  I should be, and have the distinct displeasure of overhearing my upstairs neighbors arguing… If I ever become involved with a man again, I don’t ever want to argue. I think I would crumble if he raised his voice at me… Some couples just fight… That’s what people say… “Every couple fights.” But does every couple argue? Does there always have to be a raising of the voices and belittling tone and hurt feelings afterwards? I think not… If I ever find myself in another relationship… I don’t want to fight… I won’t. I refuse.

Yesterday, I was talking to my sister. She unhappily married to her second husband, at least that’s they way she tries to make it sound… In any case, totally inconsiderate of other people’s feelings, “If Anthony and I divorce, I just won’t get married again because three marriages is just too much! But, I don’t want to be alone… I feel like God is going to release me. Not saying he’s going to die, but… Blah blah blah…” This crazy girl is practically WISHING death on a husband who is head over heels in love with her because she dislikes his daughter! Hindsight is 20/20… I should tell her that losing someone that you love because they don’t love you the same, hurts more than anything else in the world. I should tell her that having a man love you, the way Anthony loves her, is so rare, and so precious, that she shouldn’t take it for granted. Would she even listen? She knows how it feels to be tossed aside! How could she do that to him? Make his love meaningless?

Third, or was it fourth, night in a row that I dreamt of Brian… Still, I am okay. I am not shaken! I am okay! Every day I am stronger. Every day I am better. I have let go of all those stupid dating sites, and men, that I text messaged back and forth… I’m just going to be me… And enjoy myself, and my kids, minus men…

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