“I’m here for you”

Why do people say that? They never mean it. It is probably the biggest lie after “I love you” that we tell each other. I can’t even tell you how many times in the last 6 months I’ve heard both of those lies… If they were TRUTH, why then did I catch my “best friend” talking shit about me at work because I got promoted, and her lazy ass is stuck in the same position she was in for the past five years? “I’m here for you!” “I love you!” Yet all you do is take! You have these crises that you fabricate, and you complain to me. And I listen to you. I commiserate. I bemoan with you. But the second I try to share a bit of my pain – my grief, you’re busy, you have to go, we’ll chat later. Don’t lie to me! You don’t love me! You aren’t here for me! I have pain. Maybe it doesn’t matter to you… But what makes you think I give a rip about your petty complaints with your boss because you can’t alphabetize, or because it sounds like you seriously just speed through your work without taking care and dedication to ensure that you do it right the first time?! I have no friends at all, yett I am a friend to all. Ain’t that some shit?

I am tired of giving all of myself to everyone, and receiving nothing in return. No one is there for me. No one cares for me. No one has any sense of love, or loyalty, or care, or concern for me… And, to tell the truth, I am at the end of my rope. I am emotionally spent, and I just do not give a rip. I am done trying. We will see who genuinely cares about me. We will see who seeks out a relationship with me… Oh I can tell you the answer to that one right now… Not a damn soul! I am alone here. But, that’s okay. God is with me. Even when I cannot feel Him, He is always near. An ever present help in the time of trouble. He is always with me. The friend that sticketh closer than a brother. He is with me. He loves me. He comforts me. He strengthens me. I am not alone.

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