My dad’s favorite line is: “The phone works both ways.” However, why does it seem like it only works one way? I called everyone of my relatives yesterday, to wish them a Merry Christmas. Not one returned the call. Only my brother sent a message back via Instagram. They all knew that I did not have my children. It wasn’t a good day. My heart hurt. Not that I expected anyone to care, or make it better, but I did need my family. I reached out to them all in vain. Hasn’t that always been the case? I reach out in vain. My own kids didn’t think of me first. Up since 7am. Called everyone else but me… Am I that useless? I wake up today feeling like a piece of useless dog shit.