He’s Still Working

God’s not done with you

Even with your broken heart and your wounds and your scars

God’s not done with you

Even when you’re lost and it’s hard and you’ve fallen apart

God’s not done with you

It’s not over, it’s only begun

So don’t hide, don’t run

‘Cause God’s not done

With you, you.

Tauren Wells – “God’s Not Done With You”

I was driving home from work Friday and the song above came on my playlist. Surely, I have heard the song dozens of times between my playlist and the radio. Additionally, my eldest absolutely loves the song and wants to sing it as a special for church, so I hear her practicing as well. I hear the song quite a bit. Friday, however, the song moved me to tears. Placing the song on repeat, the lyrics seeped into my heart and soul. Perhaps because in my mind, I was taken back to a time when it felt like the end. But thank the Lord, it wasn’t! Because, here I am, still standing, so grateful that He was not done, and He is still working on me!

You see, I fully know what it’s like to watch my life just become a complete mess! I thought I hit “rock bottom,” then the ground slipped out from underneath my feet. Only to land me in the feeling of a free fall, wishing to hit rock bottom. At least there at the bottom, things can’t become too much worse… There, at the bottom, is the choice of whether to stay at the bottom and wallow there, or get up, and make something of the ashes, the wounds, the ruins… It took me quite a few years and many tears to make the decision to get up.

People may walk in and out of our lives like a revolving door. They might not forgive, might not forget. We may not forgive or forget, and this harms us all the more. They may turn their backs, because last time was the last time, and they have had it! They are done! We may do the same. God’s not like that. I am so grateful that He has never been done with me. Even when I walked away from Him, turned my back on Him… His love was always there, unconditionally reaching out to me, beckoning me to return, constantly reminding me of His unfailing love – never reminding me of wrongs I’ve done and mistakes I have made. His love is constant.

Right now as I take a few steps back and look at His handiwork in my life, I can see that “He’s not done writing my story.” There are some things I cannot quite understand, but I trust Him. I don’t have to see the big picture, I just have to trust and obey, knowing that He’s not done with me, and He’s still working it all out.

Romans‬ ‭8:28‬ ‭KJV‬‬ “And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.”

Learning to forgive and forget not only those who hurt me, but also myself, is probably my most challenging hurdle to cross. But, to truly love as He loves me. Well, who am I to withhold such a gift? As I teach my children, I am often convicted: when we pray for those who have hurt us, it works compassion in us, and makes forgiveness and love easy. We have the greatest example of love unconditional and forgiveness.

John‬ ‭15‬:‭17‬ KJV “These things I command you, that ye love one another.”

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