Grace or Punishment?

No matter how old my children become, I presume I will always want to fight their battles. How will they learn from this? Is it truly protecting them, or is it keeping them from leaning on the Lord? Is it keeping them from trusting in the Lord with all their hearts?

What I must really do, is learn to let go, little by little. The older they become I must learn to leave them in His capable hands, as I continue to train them up in the way they should go, knowing/trusting that, when they are old they will not depart from it.

Ecclesiastes‬ ‭5:1‬ ‭KJV “…They consider not that they do evil.”

“‘No’ means ‘No.’ It should not warrant bullying, harassment, or assault. You did the right thing. I’m sorry this is happening to you. How can I support you? What do you need from me? Are you okay? We’ll get through this together. Let’s pray.” Imagine having this conversation with your child, knowing that some adults have not learned this lesson – knowing exactly how this feels, because you have been there too.

As parents, we send our children to school each day, covered in our prayers and the blood of Christ. We all put on the Armor of God before stepping foot outside of the door. But, when one comes home, dons an artificial smile, yet has an emotional weekend, you cannot help but get on your knees and pray – because you feel the heart. You feel the pain – a pain so familiar you ask God, is this me, I thought I was healed, I thought I had forgiven. But no. It’s not you. So you know, it’s time to speak.

The human side of me – wants to come out and destroy anyone and anything that dare lay a hand, foot, cross word on/toward my child. But, I am reminded, Be angry and sin not. So, I’m angry. Yet, I have to remind myself, “Sin not, sin not, sin not.” Then, I am reminded of Christ’s teachings:

Matthew‬ ‭5:7, 9, 11, 44‬ ‭KJV‬‬ “7 Blessed are the merciful: for they shall obtain mercy. 9 Blessed are the peacemakers: for they shall be called the children of God. 11 Blessed are ye, when men shall revile you, and persecute you, and shall say all manner of evil against you falsely, for my sake. 44 But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you;”

‭‭Conviction. I prayed for our little enemy. I encouraged my child to do the same. Prayer is the only way I could find myself in a place where I could really see the whole picture. Surely, there is more to the story. The other party needs God. The other party needs help. I don’t know what home looks like, I don’t need to know. I pray for healing for both children. I pray for the other family. Some may call for punishment or consequences. I cannot say exactly where I stand, when I see the soul. I see that there is so much more to the story…

Surely, vengeance is the Lord’s. I want to grant grace, because I have been given so much. I love my children more than anything in this world. However, to love like Jesus… Well, I trust Him to fight our battles. I trust His help in forgiveness.

The sun still shines

The sun still sets

The heart forgives

The heart forgets

~ Tiffany “All This Time”

**I did advocate for my child. It took a while to yield results. I do value safety after all 😊 (In case this was not implied.) I do know the difference between right and wrong. I also see the need for grace.**

*Original Photo: sunrise at home…*


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