“We are products of our past, but we don’t have to be prisoners of it.” Rick Warren, The Purpose Driven Life: What on Earth Am I Here For?
I have heard it, read it, I know it to be true for myself. It is a theme ringing true in every fiber of my being: Leave the Past in the Past. Perhaps this is a feat I will fully conquer. I am not big on making resolutions at the start of a new year, however I am constantly working on becoming a better me.
One thing was brought to my attention, there will always be something to spark a memory. Whether that memory is pleasant or not so much, I need not dwell there. I’m guilty of being trapped inside my memories, unable to escape, as I remember all my yesterday’s… I know now that this is nothing short of a hinderance binding me.
In this new year, I wish for myself, to move forward freely. Leaving everything behind that contributes to my downfall, and realizing I can be free. Recognizing that I have been slave to past hurts and memories, only now can I move forward with liberty. They say the first step to freedom is acknowledgement…
“Change brings new beginnings, therefore choose to become better or stay the same.” Abraham Monterrosa
For this new year, in expectation of my own new beginnings, I have started reflecting on areas in my life where change must take place. I realize that everyone cannot accompany me along my journey. It is sometimes difficult to let go of those friendships, or relationships, that may not be the best for you. But, to move forward, not miss any opportunities, you have no choice but to let go.
My children know me better than anyone in this world. Last night, we had a frank conversation about my outlook for the year, and my concept of “new beginnings.” We spoke of change and letting go. We spoke about the past, the future, the present. I spoke to them about what I was leaving in 2018, on a quest to be a better me. I challenged them to live for their today’s, leave their pasts in the past, and asked, “what will it take for that to happen?”
Among other things, I am leaving painful memories of my past, and my one-sided affection on the other side of 2019. I recognized that for me to move forward with God, I cannot take those thoughts/emotions with me and still be who God wants me. Feeling much lighter already and ready for whatever comes my way, I’m ready to embark on the journey of 2019.
On the Outside Looking In 