I had a conversation with someone I was meeting for the first time and she shared part of her testimony with me.
She shared that she and her husband are pastors of a small church in a local community and their part-time music director had stepped down as she had felt that she was not operating fully in the calling Jesus had for her life. My new found expressed conviction over not doing what she felt she was called to do at the time, prompting a complete life change and change in her career path.
That got me to thinking, am I doing what I’m called to do? Can I truly say that I’m where God wants me and where He called me to?
Before I even imagined picking my family up and moving us across the country, I remember praying, “… Here am I; send me.” Isaiah 6:8 KJV
I didn’t know what that meant when I prayed it. And, it continues to be my prayer.
I want to be in the will of God. I want to do all that He has called me to do. I want to obey Mark 16:15 KJV “And he said unto them, Go ye into all the world, and preach the gospel to every creature.” However that looks for me.
I’ve discovered that there is great satisfaction in being in the will of God, and a terrible restlessness when not in His will. Jesus came to give us rest. He came to seek and to save the lost. He also came to be an example to mankind of how to live. He gave the best example of obeying the call of the Father, no matter how difficult.
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On the Outside Looking In 
It is indeed an interesting part of us to ‘find’ our gift. I personally, in the middle of a divorce and no real religious upbringing…challenged God to show me where can there possibly be anything religious or spiritual amongst the mess I was in. Well, firstly…beware what you ask for, you just may get it…which I did. He showed me in no uncertain terms of all that we do down here, by allowing me to fall and fall often, and in those experiences gained much wisdom and then Spirit would enhance my understanding so that I would share what I found. How do I know what I was given…very simply by the profound love that it was given me. It could feel like the horror of horrors that I faced…but Spirit ever gave something that was nothing but the unconditional love that it came from. So I have since shared it unconditionally as it was given me. It became so profound that it doesn’t matter what we do, it all teaches us that love. Even by doing something bad, it makes us feel uncomfortable so that we want to be back on loves path. Even our fears are our guideposts, it is always there so we will look at it, learn from it and finally break through into that love we have always kept at bay. Painful…some days a very yes…but in the end something so beautiful you will not find a word that could explain the wonder that is unconditional love. May you break through to its light, feel its truth, and be as it is ❤️ 🙏🏽
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Hi Mark, allow me to say, I’m very sorry for your divorce. My blog was born out of my own divorce. It is through our darkest of days that God’s light shines, for which I’m so thankful. I feel it so important that no matter what we do, we do it unto God and walk the path that He has set for us. I have walked this journey a long time and have learned that even in what I may see as bad, God is always good and He is always faithful. As you mentioned, it is the unconditional, unfailing love of Jesus Christ, which He gives to, demonstrates to His love and Word to us which gets us on track. It’s His love and Spirit which calls to us.
Thank you for such a thoughtful response. God bless you. Although I don’t know the circumstances, you, your wife and family will be in my family will be in my prayers 🤍🌸
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I do think that marriage has a very great purpose, it teaches us all about love, albeit a very conditional one with our fears still tucked on board. But for me it was the divorce that asked me to look deeper and dare my fears and finally break free of its chains.
That very process to find that true love within us cannot be anything but a very beautiful and profound discovery. And as you have so beautifully said, His way is always giving us that love, even among those crazy times. In fact, now in hindsight, there isn’t a step we take that doesn’t guide us towards it.
And thank you for your condolences for that loss of my marriage, but it guided me to something so much more profound…and…I get along with my ex wife much, much better now than before. She in fact was exactly that person to poke and prod me to dare those inner fears. Without it I would be lost. I do hope your marriage ending gave you that inner discovery also, and helped to go beyond and into loving yourself. We only ever give out what we are, and until I learned to love myself I cannot give out that true love as unconditional love should be, simply because I was still buried in my fears, those conditions we bind ourselves in.
Thank you for sharing so beautifully kind lady, may your steps ever be in loves light 😀 ❤️ 🙏🏽
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That place intentionally ‘carved out’ for us – His perfect will. Isn’t it a ‘trip’ doing this with Jesus 😁! Good post…
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It is “trip” full of ups and downs, twists and turns and worth every second! Thanks!
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What the Lord has called us to He empowers us in. Wherever He leads us, He goes with us. Trusting in Him is where peace and rest live.
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Amen!
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