I have loved, and I have lost. I have given myself to two men, and they used me up, and tossed aside the pieces that remained. I didn’t know what to do with those pieces. Who would want them? Who could love a broken wretch like me? Then, I remembered there had always been the One. He has loved me when no one else had. He has always been here for me, whether I acknowledged Him, or not. He is always waiting, waiting for me. How could I forget the One who died for me? How could I forget the One who shed His blood? I did nothing to deserve His love, but He loves me unconditionally.
This love that He has for me is never failing. This love that He has for me, is all encompassing. This love that He has for me, is all the love that I need. When I feel lost and all alone, I know that He is with me. He has held me through the darkest of nights. When I have felt lost, and all alone, He has been my comfort. At times, I did not know, but He has always sheltered me. Jesus is truly the greatest man I know. I lack for nothing, in Him I can put my trust, because He loves me. “Greater love hath no man that he who would lay down his life for a friend.”
When I think of the goodness of Jesus and all He has done for me, my soul cries out ‘Hallelujuah, praise God for saving me!’
There are moments in life, where I call into question: God, are you really there? Do you really hear me? Do you really love me? Sometimes, I have only to look up to the hills from whenst comest my help. Where does my help come from? My help cometh from the Lord. It is almost as a sign, that I see the works of His hands, and I know that yes, Jesus loves me! The rainbow in the sky is ever present in my life. A promise. A promise I hold dearly that the storm that I just endured will never again destroy my land in the same way that it previously had. His promises are true.
His rainbows are ever present before my life. The storms that shook my life were not meant to destroy me, but to build me, and make me stronger. I am strong because of the storms. I am strong because He is with me! The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want…
I am unworthy of this love, but oh so grateful that He loves me. I have toyed with idea of “what if…” As in, what if I reconcile with BS? What if I remarry one day? But I came to the conclusion that Jesus is the greatest man that I know. I don’t think that anyone would want me. And that’s okay. I am content loving Jesus. I know that He loves me. He will never leave me. He will never fail me. If I don’t measure up to His expectations, He will still love me. He will not abuse, or harm me. He will gently reprove me when necessary. If I fail Him, He will not take His love away. Where everyone else has let me down, He has never, and will never! Jesus is the greates man I know. This love is the only love for me. And, I’m content in knowing that He is mine, and I am His.